Thursday, April 22, 2010
My oldest son has decided to go on a mission. Why am I not totally thrilled about it. If I were a total Peter Priesthood, I would be happy as hell. I know me being a homo has a lot to do with it. I am not temple worthy at the moment because I don't pay my tithing and I have been inactive for quite a while. And to be honest deep down inside I don't feel like doing anything to become temple worthy. Because of this, my bishop won't even let me baptize my youngest son. He is almost 9 years old. I guess I will have my oldest son baptize him to save him from having to take the missionary lessons. My wife says I am anti Mormon. I really don't feel like this is the case. I am just a Mormon who also happens to be a homo. Where does a guy like me fit in the big family plan? The way I feel inside doesn't jive with the church. I hate it sometimes. I want to do what is right but I really don't know what that is at the moment. What seems right for me and what seems right for the family are two totally different things. Ah the life of a married Moho. :) I better start on that pinewood derby car that is due to race on Monday.